I make a to-do list almost every day.
Not because I follow it.
But because it gives me hope.
The Planning Phase (Delusion at its Peak)
It usually starts like this:
- Wake up early
- Work out
- Be productive
- Fix life
- Drink water (very important apparently)
- Become a better person
And while writing it, I genuinely believe…
“Yes. Today is the day I change my life.”
The Reality Check
Fast forward 3 hours:
I’ve:
- opened my laptop
- closed my laptop
- checked my phone 17 times
- reorganised my playlist (very urgent work)
And somehow…
nothing on the list is done.
The Fake Productivity Era
But wait.
I feel productive.
Because:
- I thought about doing the task
- I planned how I would do it
- I imagined myself completing it successfully
Honestly, mentally… I’ve already done everything.
Me vs The To-Do List (Midday Fight)
By afternoon, the tension starts.
The list is just sitting there.
Judging me.
And I’m like:
“Why are you so unrealistic?”
The list is like:
“You wrote me.”
And I have no comeback.
The Negotiation Phase
This is where I try to save the relationship.
“Okay fine… I’ll just do ONE thing.”
That one thing?
The easiest task on the list.
Something like:
✔ Reply to one email
✔ Drink water
✔ Exist
And suddenly I feel like:
“Wow. Progress.”
The Guilt Trip
Evening hits.
The list? Still mostly untouched.
Now I’m sitting there thinking:
- “I had so much time today…”
- “Why didn’t I just start?”
- “Tomorrow I’ll do better.”
Ah yes.
Tomorrow — the most productive day of my life.
The Plot Twist
Tomorrow comes.
And I make…
another list.
Final Thought
At this point, I don’t know if my to-do list is helping me…
or just reminding me of all the things I didn’t do.
But you know what?
Maybe it’s not about finishing everything.
Maybe it’s just about:
- showing up a little
- doing what you can
- and not fighting yourself the entire day
(Okay maybe fighting a little… for character development.)
Be honest—
Do you actually follow your to-do list…
or do you just enjoy making it? 😌
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