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EPISODE 8 — “OFF THE RECORD”

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NAINA

Day fourteen.

Simone arrived at 9 AM with the expression of someone who had already made a decision and was presenting it as a conversation.

SIMONE “Forchetta wants to do a feature.”

NAINA “No.”

SIMONE “Not a review. A feature. Ghar’s reinvention. The aperitivo. The chef who came back from London.”

NAINA “Forchetta runs fast and fact-checks slowly.”

SIMONE “It’s a feature not an investigation.”

NAINA “Same thing in the wrong hands.”

SIMONE “The Instagram momentum is peaking. This is the story that takes it to the next level.”

I looked at the accounts.

At the specials board.

At the numbers that were moving — slowly, measurably — in the right direction.

NAINA “One hour.”

SIMONE “Tuesday afternoon.”

NAINA “Try not to—”

SIMONE “I’m not the one who described a supplier’s business model as architecturally unsound at a dinner party.”

NAINA “That was accurate.”

SIMONE “It was a dinner party.”

She left with the expression of someone already slightly worried about what she’d just arranged.

I went back to the prep.

I would be fine.

——

The Interview

The journalist’s name was Giulia.

Sharp eyes. The kind of person who asked questions that sounded casual and weren’t.

We sat at table four.

Aryan was at the bar.

Which meant I could see him in my peripheral vision the entire time.

Which was either helpful or the opposite.

The first twenty minutes were fine.

Ghar’s history. Papa’s story. The aperitivo. The arancini.

Then —

GIULIA “Outside investment?”

The question landed slightly too specifically.

NAINA “Authentic restaurants survive when they find the right support. Outside investment is often what keeps them alive when the city’s food establishment would rather watch them fail quietly.”

I said it without thinking.

I heard it after it left my mouth.

Giulia wrote something down.

At the bar Aryan’s espresso cup stopped halfway to his mouth.

GIULIA “You think Milan’s food establishment would rather watch authentic restaurants fail.”

NAINA “I think Milan has a complicated relationship with anything that didn’t originate within fifty kilometres of the city.”

GIULIA “That’s bold.”

NAINA “It’s honest.”

Giulia smiled.

The smile of a journalist who had just found her headline.

I saw it.

Too late.

——

After Giulia left Aryan walked over from the bar.

Unhurried.

ARYAN “You know she’s going to print all of it.”

NAINA “I know.”

ARYAN “The outside investment comment.”

NAINA “That was general.”

ARYAN “It didn’t sound general.”

NAINA “It was general, Aryan.”

ARYAN “The Milan insularity comment.”

NAINA “Also general.”

ARYAN “You called the city gastronomically parochial.”

NAINA “I said complicated relationship.”

ARYAN “The journalist didn’t hear the difference.”

Simone made a sound from somewhere nearby.

Not quite a laugh.

NAINA “You weren’t going to stop me.”

ARYAN “You looked like you knew what you were doing.”

NAINA “I didn’t know what I was doing.”

ARYAN “I know that now.”

NAINA “You could have coughed.”

ARYAN “I don’t cough strategically.”

NAINA “That is an extremely specific limitation.”

ARYAN “I’m a specific person.”

Simone’s not-laugh happened again.

Louder this time.

NAINA “This is not funny.”

ARYAN “No.”

A beat.

ARYAN “Milan loves an argument. You just gave them one.”

She stared at him.

He looked back.

The deciding face.

NAINA “You think it’ll be fine.”

ARYAN “I think you said exactly what you meant and now you have to live with Milan agreeing with you.”

——

He stayed after Simone left.

Not at the bar.

At the pass — leaning against the counter while I worked through the dinner prep.

I handed him things without thinking about it.

He received them without thinking about it.

NAINA “You don’t have to stay.”

ARYAN “I know.”

NAINA “The article goes up in a few hours.”

ARYAN “I know that too.”

NAINA “So why—”

ARYAN “Because I want to.”

The kitchen went quiet.

I looked at him.

He was looking at the pass.

Dark grey shirt. Sleeves pushed up. The ink mark on his finger where his hand rested on the counter.

NAINA “Aryan.”

ARYAN “Yes.”

NAINA “You’re still not telling me something.”

A pause.

Not a deflection.

A considering one.

ARYAN “Several things.”

NAINA “I know. You’ve said that before.”

ARYAN “Yes.”

NAINA “Are you going to keep saying it.”

He looked at me for a long moment.

The way he looked at the cardamom at the market.

Like he was identifying exactly what it was and where it belonged.

ARYAN “No.”

NAINA “When.”

ARYAN “Soon.”

Close enough now that I could see the exact line of his jaw. The particular tiredness under his eyes that matched mine. His hand on the counter is completely still in the way of someone making a conscious decision not to move it.

I noticed all of that.

Stood there.

Aware of it.

NAINA “Soon.”

ARYAN “Soon.”

Neither of us moved.

Then Papa came through the kitchen door.

He looked at both of us.

Then looked at the half-finished prep.

Picked up an apron.

Started helping without a word.

The moment dissolved the way those moments do.

Quietly.

Without announcement.

Aryan picked up a knife.

Started chopping beside me.

Like it was natural.

Like we’d been doing this for a long time.

——

Midnight.

The article went up at 11:47 PM.

THE CHEF WHO CAME BACK: NAINA SHARMA ON GHAR, MILAN AND WHY AUTHENTIC RESTAURANTS NEED MORE THAN SOUL TO SURVIVE.

I read it.

The outside investment line was in paragraph four.

Sharma was candid about the realities of running an independent restaurant in a city she described as having a complicated relationship with culinary outsiders.

Candid.

That was one word for it.

My phone buzzed continuously.

Simone. Food accounts. A blogger with forty thousand followers who screenshot the Milan quote with the caption finally someone said it.

Then — Aryan.

Two hundred new followers.

Then —

Milan loves an argument.

I stared at the screen.

Typed —

I’m not making you right about this.

Three seconds.

You already did.

I almost smiled.

Didn’t.

I looked at the article.

At the outside investment line sitting in paragraph four.

I had said it without thinking.

But it was true.

And now it was out there.

Where the wrong person might read it.

——

ARYAN

I read the article twice.

The outside investment comment sat in paragraph four.

Outside investment is often what keeps them alive.

I read it three times.

Something about that sentence.

Not the Milan commentary.

The investment comment.

I thought about the things I was still not telling her.

The things I was running out of time to not tell her.

Soon said in a kitchen with Papa’s apron on the hook.

I opened the journal.

Wrote one line.

Running out of time.

I closed it.

——

Closing lines — NAINA:

Day fourteen.

I said things I shouldn’t have.

To a journalist.

On the record.

Milan loved it.

He stayed because he wanted to.

He said soon.

Papa came in and picked up an apron.

Papa never picks up an apron for anyone.

The outside investment line is in paragraph four.

The wrong person might read it.

Ask the question.

Sixteen days.

END OF EPISODE 8.